From typed up notes not from the database…it was actually a “team meeting” with the case manager of the area agency involved. This followed the events of July 1st; and this set the tone for the rest of the calendar year, making that one moment of mutually misunderstanding  be entirely all my fault at the expense of my status there.

[Outlining concerns]

• Continued disagreement with current 1 on 1 staff (Aly).
• it was growing over since mid May
• Disagreement over philosophy of my involvement with the respite night (our after hours event where I explain in a later post.) Aly has even admitted that she didn’t see my change of role being that important to her.
• The June respite night was the last straw (many blatant attempts to continue to make our project succeed, felt it was more like “her’s” [Another example of narcissism and attention seeking, it was supposed to be a mutual project, between an atypical client and a typical staff. She verbally agreed to this in late 2017. Despite having narcissistic fingerprints, the individual really was good at agreeableness – when it came to fellow management; not so with the clients.]
• Overall: i have felt has strong opinions of me that may only be because of bad chemistry. I have also felt more undervalued of some of her actions.

<Staffing changes in the mid June email was more of that latter belief. I understand she has been promoted, I am for it, I understand while ;nothing is going to change for Mondays’ I know there is a shelf life.>  [And it did by September into October]

Options:

Possibility to add additional hours at this point to repair the broken relationship?

The plan: Aly with additional hours, “Foster” to start on Wednesdays effective July 10th. Sentiment of fading by Aly; the “Big Boss” claims is an “assumption”.

• Can Aly be downgraded to backup support after?
• What is the availability for Foster and “Miranda”, other staff)?
• Foster begins 7/10 1 on 3; Miranda, up in their [sic]
• Could the staff be switched out for a 1 on 3 situation?
• Foster would be switched on 7/10

Big Boss warned about Foster not aware of “the system”

<Ignorance is bliss>; does not follow up on emails often. <I may fix that> [Some examples of blame-shifting]

Big Boss “I would like to challenge you” “You have worked with Aly for over a year and a half”

Case Manager: Communication is challenge if you need space, you need to be really clear. [Jezzum, is this a fucking joke? How much clear do I have to be explicitly, Ms. Fatass chain smoker of a biach!? I swear I kept that line to myself!]

The car: “it’s challenging, I think that needs to be put in the back of the burner.” [Talking can be a distraction as she added, but this was quickly debunked by December when I addressed her lack of listening yet again to management with nuances as examples. But my freckin gawd the metaphoric ‘back burner’… whose the adult in the room?]

“I know that April to June, where you may be more sensitive, and others may be careful what to say” “hyper aware”, Case Manager

Big Boss “I know your privacy is sacred”; “More time with you on Mondays”

Case Manager : “Pushing to push back” “we need to work through it” “that little break”

“You’re in challenged time”

Mentioned triggers such as shoulders to the ears, “bug eyes”, Case Manager said “I’ve seen you with bug eyes once” [Referring to a 2016 crisis in April]

After 10:00 am Aly, my mother and I were left alone;  responded in re to calling her [in late June] a “fucking bitch” and “slitting throat” as “not appropriate for me or for the ‘program participants’” [I was under high distress and verbal self-abuse langauge is not atypical for autistics, Ms.]

(likely covered me)

That might had been the straw that broke the back. I understand where Aly may had came from, but I did recall saying “why are you coming off as a bitch?” when she was being rough in “challenging” another client out of his intellectual comfort-zone. But to each of their own. I yielded and acknowledged’ something that was never done in return by this point.