Before my 21st birthday, the last day of grade school for me; I had considered that maybe I didn’t need to work and just live at home all day and all night, and not have any social interaction.
That didn’t go so well!!!
After getting some opposition to such plan, I didn’t do the work thing, because maybe having a social life could be a potential. (As you already know, I’ve had struggles in my life in that department.)
Now as 2013 comes along, I’ve decided the only goal in the next year is to finally find a job and just work. This world is pretty fucked up; and people do judge people by their job, their line of work, or hell even the company they work for. By not having any of that social status, I am a piece of a turd, and I am a non-existent person in society. (That latter statement could be me just being delusional.)
Notice that I didn’t state anything about a social life. This is how I am going to tackle this with my support team:

• Society is ignorant
• Society is not open minded
• Society is narrow-minded
• There are a lot of judgmental people, and when I mean judgmental, it’s a negative type
• People are used to sensational media driving crime, typically against men (such as WMUR-TV Manchester comes to my mind and other media that synthesizes such crimes and blows the stories out of proportion. Media agencies claim they are educating and informing the public with is bullshit if you asked me.)
• Statistically, women are victims of abuse. Same applies to people with disabilities, though that would offend the women’s groups. Women want to be treated with respect, but yet they will cry foul if they dress provocatively and seeking that attention to later deflect.

The following concerns base on my personal experience dealing with autism

• Whether or not its seriously an issue with the ASD; there is a strong emphasis on “social skills”. Alleged “normal” people have never been taught formal skills; and these special ed institutions* have drilled black-and-white logic into our brains to socialize. However outside of the institutions; people can look down on their phones, people can cut one and another off; that etiquette can fly out of the window; and most social relationships appear to be one-way. The “normal” or the psycho-babble’s “nerotypical”, “typical” or NT never gets shunned for their anti-social behavior.
• Some people do think Autism is a disease. They are just plain creeped out of my group
• Society has defined that autistic people are mute and dumb. Some people think they fun to be with  in a professional relationship, but allegedly they have a fuck you approach off the clock. So much for being nice with them when you are getting your pay check!
• I’ve asked a question online hypothetically if they would be willing to date someone with autism, and there was limited hopes.
• There aren’t enough fish in the sea in my case. Except for my fancy goldfish I have had for almost 5 years.

*when you are in a 9 hour school program (depending on the ride times on the school bus) – miles away from your hometown that really isn’t “home” I’d highly bet you would feel you were put into a state institution.
I got a comment on the Facebook Page companion of this blog from a “Sandy Gallagher” (whom of which found my other blog’s facebook page) that I was being too bitter, and giving me advice that was out of line. (That comment was since deleted, because it didn’t meet the standards for responses.) This user must have had perceived me as someone living in my mothers basement 24×7. Well given this record 10 months of summer she’s probably right! This user appeared to be a motherly type, and going back to the subject in hand, doesn’t know the full story, and she probably didn’t read the stories beyond the Facebook hotlinks. And this is how the real world thinks too. People are very quick to judge people, and this kind of psyche is something I am strongly aware of.
I’ve mentioned the reality, so heres the deal:

• Get a fucking job! Give me some financial independence (allegedly) and allegedly girls find it sexually arousing when someone works and makes money. That’s from what I heard. Also my day services were originally used for fixed contract of a work program; I will request the budget to focus on the work program and the other services can be reassigned or be cut out entirely.
• Kiss my social hopes goodbye. I am well aware I am an oddball, and in order to have a “healthy relationship”, I need to find people with similar interests. Well most females aren’t geeky, and they have created a sexism of tech isn’t for girls. (fuck those feminists twerps!) So with that said, I am not going to waste my precious time finding someone that is likeminded.
• Save my energy and wallet! I will not waste time or energy of trying to get someone to like/accept/appreciate me. Remember how I would piss money down the drain just to get the girl to show my presence? The lack of warm relationships with a vast majortiy of people I know, have caused me to exit the narrow-minded/self-centered group aka people with Pervasive Developmental Disorders to go into the wild of strangers and trying to get a lady to like me and not know I am that messed up! For the last five years its failed! Insanity is defined of repeating the same mistake and expecting a different outcome – well I will break it!

I’ve chosen for my application of life, going to a less social environment will help me. And its attributed to the ignorance and lack of affection in society. I can’t say how really severe my autism is, but it has tainted my view of “relationships” and maybe it was poor upbringings, my mother’s lack of love coming from her family and other things I can’t discuss publicly or elaborate.
I am really saddened that people with a wheelchairs are accepted; people with that damned Down’s Syndrome are somewhat accepted, illegal aliens, Indians, Blacks, Asians are accepted in the Millennial generation, but forbids anyone with the former disabilities, or autistic disorders, whether they are severe, or extremely mild like the unrelated Asperger Syndrome. It makes no sense.
I think inter-relational between normal people and PDD individuals will take at least 50 years the earliest. If my prediction is clear (which some of my predictions ring true); I’ll be 75 years old. And I sadly believe this is true.
I am already preparing the worst, and just trying to turn off that switch is the only thing that will be best for society.
Yes, its fucked up. Yes, its a shame. Yes, this is perverted – but it is what it is. I have to accept that being anti-social is the best option for me in the near to long term future. There are types and specific people that I can attribute this to, but I’ll be the nice guy and stay quiet and zip it!