I took an out of office time from Friday night to Sunday morning to finally clear myself from the 3 years of hell I had to deal with.

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My therapist suggested going someplace just before the time of COVID19, but as things have settled and the virus as still deadly, but more manageable, I decided to go out of my comfort zone and gone to Portsmouth, with financial help from my mother and for logistics, but for all intensive purposes this was the first time I was away from family without being forced.

There was a sense of loneliness. Most people were in couples and pairs of couples. But few lonely or single or onsies.  While I am not going to go explicit so soon, let’s say perhaps there was a bit of a dude looked like a lady at some parts of the trip. Given my childlike nature, feminine qualities, and that ASD has feminine qualities baked in;  I had wondered I could do an experiment, and wondered if in order to be part of them, do you have to be like them?  Was this trip a sign that gender identity really didn’t matter? Is dressing up differently like cosplay?

Wait till I talk more about this to my therapist and come back to you with some or the entire written narrative of that expierence.