This week has been “off” the one or a couple times where I have put up with my mother for 24x7x365 for nearly 4 years has been daunting and to have a resiliency of not blowing up like a teenage autistic would normally be complemented in a modest manner. However given the unhealthy relationship my mother and I are going through, it’s been extremely challenging.

Sunday I was a bit snippy and I lost it. The other day my mother was just going on and on and having to explain something I can pick up without needing to be talked to like a first grader. This morning, I was under the impression my mother was going to take care of her brother and go to the Manchester office, but then to my chagrin she pulls a curveball of going to the Massachusetts office instead.

Cognitive dissonance much? The reason was a bit passive agressive, she thought she didn’t feel welcome to be at home because apparently I snapped at her. Well at 7:00 or 7:30 in the morning I am not expecting another body in the house! And she wants me to speak more directly than speaking around things to prevent confusion to some annual work related to me, I stopped her and “I’m going to say this straight” and I felt like broke a teacup. She was silent when I left to say “goodnight”.

The lack of emotional control is really draining on me. Is it OK for me to snap at my mother? No, should I be more patient? Perhaps. But for her to be hyper-sensitive to tone and delivery to the point she is not feeling validated using grievance as a tool to manipulate my behavior is pretty infantile.

This should be a public service announcement for females of all ages to have their hormones checked or controlled.