The Frustrations of Living with a Dysfunctional Mother

The fawns from 88 South Road in Londonderry seem to shriek through my ears. My mother’s ego has been baked in as her being the primary caretaker because I am not able to be my own autonomous self.

It’s getting really sad as I get older this old woman just continues to treat me like a perpetual child. From excessive dialog. Having to “just”-ify things, come right upstairs to the kitchen to “investigate” some sound, and this horrible arrogance of taking control of things just to have domination because she’s insecure in other parts of her life. I am not diagnosing her, but I also suspect she’s a Highly Sensitive Person, where there’s constant self-surveillance, which sucks the people around her, who she feels she needs to “protect”

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People Who Can’t Talk Right

My mother is home teleworking. I just talked to her to discuss the morning’s plans. I told her what I wanted to do and she kinda gave me a response of that she had another plan. The plan was “to bring transfer station things after I drop you off” to my day program.

My mother is known pretty bad for speaking in list-like languages and is horrible at modifiers like “a”, “an” and “the” and often when she says things like “wanted to bring transfer station stuff to transfer station” she makes it as if it was a living breathing thing that should be a proper noun. But even if the local Transfer Station would be a proper noun, she should use appropriate modifiers ether before or after the proper noun.

Is this her fault? No. Why? Because for autistics, the standard operating procedure is to the least amount of words because they would get overwhelmed if you overtalk. Well thats if you explain everything all the time and go into filibusters like my moronic neighbor who isn’t even a true neighbor as they think they live on a 2 acre property.

But I am no stupid dog. I shouldn’t be talked to in commands.

Anyways, excuse me while I go Ernie Anderson and start talking like a sailor as I can’t take fools seriously myself!