From typed up notes not from the database…it was actually a “team meeting” with the case manager of the area agency involved. This followed the events of July 1st; and this set the tone for the rest of the calendar year, making that one moment of mutually misunderstanding be entirely all my fault at the expense of my status there.
This was actually not in a log, but in my Daily Notes folder on my network drive.
Short Narrative:
After the incident with Aly, I sent an email to “Mr. Jackass” with regards to dropping Mondays until further notice.
Short Narrative:
This was the last scheduled Monday on Aly’s part and was really unprofessional with her honesty.
Two days after that incident, I need backup. The reply negated any concern and wouldn’t allow me to transfer. This manager left during COVID.
I need to be really serious. I have not overstepped authority recently and request to intervention with this high severity. I desperately need your help, you know me for almost 3 years, you have more sympathy to my needs, and you would address them if you were still at [primary office]. I can’t overwhelm your time, but I have to…I need to inform you of what is been going on. It’s time sensitive and I would love a response at the earliest to try to not let the situation from the management continue to fester.
The last thing I wanted to do is send an email. I was going to wait for a reply from you, but Aly responded (on the very bottom) this morning with some pretty strong statements indicating she’s wants to bail out with me. I had to get on top of that subj before things got worse.
This was actually based off a 2019 post about management. And the same day where I trashed many of my Facebook-friends, by blocking them and their S.O.’s profiles
Short Narrative: Conflicts resulting from an email from the previous week
Long form:
Attempted to begin to work on the newsletter, Aly mentioned that “Jackass” would come in at 9:30 to discuss the email. I started to make remarks where I defended the reasoning of the email, and Aly was cutting me off (i.e. not listening), I started to get loud, and Aly responded that “I do not appreciate degrading emails”. Aly refused to listen to how I felt being not heard and felt like “the only adult in the room” last week being attacked.
Short Narrative:
Contacted Program Coordinator/DSP reminding their responsibility in providing meaningful support in the 1 on 1 sense. As of October 1st, zero reply. [This was also 2 months after being promoted into management]
Long form notes, emails, conversations:
* * refers to implicit language, ” ” marks are from staff < and > remarks ofs your’s truly.
<No longer going to be as open because I don’t feel you validate me.>
*”Aly” validates *
Not from my database, but even with text documents, I put dates on the filename for protection of the narrative’s integrity. This is classic narcissist’s way of sucking you into a situation without consent.
After my last day program problems in the period of the Hopeless Autistic, I started to do documentation, one for my own accountability, and second to see how long a turnaround of tasks would take. I started to use Filemaker Pro and realized very important to document things.
The first version was created and went live in mid 2017; an update occurred with a new database in 1Q of 2018. In this verison, there is more than 400 Tracking Numbers, that have specific events. The Related Tracking Numbers or RTNs were cross-references (manually) to other instances (or later would become incidents.)
The FileMaker Pro database logged almost everything in my life- even for positives.
Sadly the FMP database was the crash course of what was it like to experience narcissistic abuse. In fact, people who are recovering from said abuse are often the ones that document like crazy. Most often, I had taken my MacBook and used TextEdit (sometimes Microsoft Word would slow things up.) On a good day, you got a paragraph summary. By 2019, when shit hit the fan, the documents would be line by line, play by play, real time transcriptions of the exchanges of the pissing matches of the ex-1 on 1 (“Aly”) and later the hack manager who I call “Jackass”.
The turnaround time or if an event a situation got re escalated you updated the dates and make an note on the Short narrative
This was extremely critical to refer to this database when processing the abuse I went through and sadly without tooting my horn, I came out as the lone “adult in the room”, a phrase used throughout this situation. It obviously ended on March 13th, 2020, as the pandemic started to get concerning. They knew that I would take time off, and as a result they didn’t have the class to tell me that they would not renew my services scheduled to lapse in April, until I sent the letter of “not renewing” in May, of which they responded.
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