“Community Based Supports” and a Millennial autistic abandoned by said “Community”

I’ve beaten up the lies and bullshit of Community Based Supports for the longest time for people who age out of SPED and land into the adult services world and how SPED is more stereotypically a welfare state than services with the “Medicaid” name.

What the hell is a “community”? How much should “family” be as a support system? Is the “community” inclusive or exclusive and private and isolated? The hell does it really mean practically?

The Blue App kills communities!

The inability to network IRL, to get a job, to meet new people was put on a heavy burden, but then I realized while I was being gaslit, defamed and often slandered in “confidential” documents, by hack rich white folks, like that fucking DINO, I realized the hard way, it was the “community” that failed.

 

As Valentine’s Day comes and my birthday being nearly a month away… I wonder if I should post a lonely birthday photo like what some pick-me autism mom did about a decade ago in Maine. But hell, I’d laughing at my own expense, or crying for that matter.

To those autism-moms out there, they victimize themselves using the child as the object to cover for their grievances of them not having friends to celebrate. But why blame the autism? Why is it always the disability that ruins a parent’s life? Hell what about the hierarchal child? What about the freckin village?

In the last year, I figured out what never happened, what would never happen, and how far back I fell. It wasn’t “the system”. People massively failed. To prevent redundancy, I’ve written extensively about social media, and the stereotypical opinions on Facebook, then I written on the bystander effect, and poorly written opinions on millennials.

Nearly half of this generation have been adults for most of their lifespan, it’s now clear that this generation against anyone whose autistic or IDD… these people I hate to lump them into a group of piling bullshit, is evil… to the point I wish them harm, I wish bad things happen, to the point I wished so many had a mildly autistic child and let them figure them out on their own, and not “hoover” me back into a connection because they happen to have someone that’s like me.

I am writing this from personal and professional experience with my interactions with this generation. The Millennials is the reason why I question the “1 in [2 figure number]” statistic, because logically speaking there should be enough awareness, and acceptance would follow enough awareness 

Career Oriented

From ABAs to DSPs to paras to SPED Teachers in-between, Millennials are extremely self-centered, and lack empathy as they want to walk the career path to full control. While their parent counterpart, the Baby Boomers still want to have their final hurrah, Millennials will most likely will continue their traditions, including the same sociopathic form, of lacking empathy, and acting on theory, studies and lack of eye-to-eye experiences. They wonder why so many people on the spectrum can’t engage, but how the hell can you expect to engage when you come off as bitch to help them?

They want the fancy four-letter abbreviated title for power and control, even in this field where you can’t make six figures.

Social Media and Alternative Technologies

Background of where they grew up with

Millennials (b 1982-1995) were the last generation to experience narrowband communications (that is dial-up data services like AOL, to hard wired Plain Ol Telephone Service, to the only mobile communications at the time paging, and primitive cell phones like the MicroTAC phone by Motorola. Millennials remember there was a fast path to accessing Web content, and a slow one for those who accessed the Net on a telephone line.

You’d think they’d be a well rounded person to know how pick up a desk phone, email, etc.

When I had to go through the discovery after Mel, all messenger convos were part of it as well. One girl from South wrote messages as if she as on a voice call. Examples like literal back and fourth, one by one replies, to the point I was so cringed, by the conversation, and I am wondering on the other end of the endpoint “what is she doing? Is she out with friends? Am I intruding?”

Versus how they use it today

Because they also feel that Messenger is like sending an email (in fact that’s what Messenger’s predecessor was, a literal private message hence why so many of us say “PM” over “DM” because we grew up on Web 1.0) that they don’t even realize that so many of us have push notifications, and Messenger is like AIM of the 20s. So one time one of the girls sent me a message around the time I would wake up, the iPad would go out of Do Not Disturb at 6:45, and a message was pushed just around that time, and I called her out, and guess what? I got gaslit and was told “should use your do not disturb” feature.

The thing I find the most amusing is they are so articulate in text, that could save them 30 seconds of their lives if they had just used the voice chat, given they have smartphone, and can’t figure that out?

You’ll see that Millennials’ Facebook profiles are really simple, there could be a number of reasons, but I think their lack of literacy in the changes (for the better or for the worse) is being severely underutilized.

My views have further been solidified, social media makes this generation more sociopathic. Who knows what will happen as they age. 

Bystander effect and Narcissism

The millennials I thought I grew up are extremely fake-it-till-you-make-it, being walked over so they can stand to the top.  From pageant girls, to political science, to STEM types, Londonderry, NH was a cesspool of over-educated punks with no empathy and no social skills. Their fucking rich parents ruined these sons of bitches. They are so evil, that I hope hell freezes over these goddamned punks.

The reason why I am so emotional, is they have no emotion. It’s part of that professionalism, you see!? Millennials lack authenticity. They lack the act of being honest. They’ll lead you on like a school age infatuation, even if you are not in love with them.

That alone really drove me to the edge. Trying to meet up with the remaining Ltowners who live in the overall area, they… couldn’t be authentic in text on Messenger.

I go so far to say that their lack of introspection, lack of empathy goes as far back as elementary school. I go so far to say they were faking it even then. To be fair, personalities form at the onset of adolescence, and I had an experiment in the first few years on Facebook (shit) almost 2 decades ago. What happened nearly 5-7 years ago was just a further confirmation in the hopes I was wrong. But I was never proven right, Facebook to legacy suburban types is toxic! The Blue App kills communities!

The inability to network IRL, to get a job, to meet new people was put on a heavy burden, but then I realized while I was being gaslit, defamed and often slandered in “confidential” documents, by hack rich white folks, like that fucking DINO, I realized the hard way, it was the “community” that failed. The so called libertarians and the so called conservatives really didn’t care unless they looked like them and I was not one of those people.

So all that shit that the Concord hacks from ABLENH, to PIC to the State’s agencies were all lies. The outcomes are bullshit! This “community based support” is literally place a wheelchair in a public place to get sympathy by the “peers” and that’s it! And if you’re like me and you’re invisible, well you’re even more fucked. ABLENH, PIC, family support circles are like “nothing to see here, move along – we closed Laconia… so everything else is your problem, not ours” ‘dude.

I write this with authority, I write this from experience, from attempts to confirm I am right or wrong, and guess what?  I’m right! My life did get fucked over by people – not just the system. The former is the reason why I’ll have yet another lonely birthday. And where is that so-called “accountability”?

 

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