Among the many things drilled upon me was the obsession on “peers”, typical minded people in my age group, quoted in some ways from the then-head of the Bureau of Developmental Services at the state’s Department of Health and Human Services aprox. 2014.

Many of these hacks really are like big government box checkers; that do not go on the frontlines. In this state where it’s libertarian and conservative, they are sure as hell authoritative and significant boundaries between the bureaucrats and the individuals; and that’s why I put them under “authoritative”. I call these hacks more like formal virgins who haven’t experienced life because they talk so much like a lawyer.

Anyways… this wasn’t just a BDS schtick, my previous case manager from the mid 10s was also pushing it (to me) whether it was passive or direct. As if I have the power to find the upper twentysomethings or later thirtysomethings.

Sadly there is very few. In fact age is a significant relatable thing for me to identify people. In my neurological-peer level, the closest age I know are about 5 to 7 years younger. And that alone makes me feel very lonely. But many want me to be around typical people, so where are they?

Not here…

Not there…

Not somewhere else…

Not anyone here!

That’s the tough reality. There is absolutely no one between 5 years older or 5 years younger. The average age of a New Hampshirite is in their late 40s. This means the youngest is schoolage or in their early to mid 20s and the oldest is over the age of 65. There are plenty of old people and there’s always a place for children. So what about the millennials? I can’t rule out specifics but I have some theories (since my millennial friends are not available for comment anymore.)

• It’s too expensive – Other than zoning policies (allegedly), and a generally hot market (some of my friends would like to blame the system rather than being in small state where individuals want to live in an acre-plus property) that really has pushed housing into a frenzy
• It’s not hip-enough – Despite attempts to use our NPA as a brand, many places are using “The 603” as a hip brand, but you’re still getting people over the age of 40 and not anyone younger. Some just move to a more liberal and hip place, because the strict and conservative culture still plagues the state in general. Most of my peers from Londonderry use their “hometown” as their stepping stone, it was the town of yesteryear, they have moved on to be abusive and egregious and elitest jerks that Londonderry is-too-cool for them (or even NH for that matter)
• New Hampshire wasn’t really their home – Some of my friends from school came to towns like Londonderry in their 3rd grade. The definition of a “hometown” is subjective, but at least a handful of my Londonderry peers have returned to what was where they were born and grew up in the very early years of their life as single digits.

But I grew up in one the more populated (and affluent towns) – where I live presently there is no one of my age group here at all. It’s vastly my mother’s age, my gram’s age and people under the age of 25. Yeah, I am going to be friends of people who know nothing. I am not very certain about Generation Z just as I don’t care for Gen X or worse the ultra buttoned up Silent Generation. That’s really what NH is made up of, the most stubbornest of all stubborn people, and the atypicals (that’s a-me – is always the one that is looked down because of his rigidity.)

I have for so long tried to find the people within my age group and I was obsessive myself, because it was projected upon. I don’t want to be around old people. I can barely take care of myself, so why should I be expected to take care of others? Why can I be around young, cute and sexy or YCS type before it’s too late? At this rate, it’s just over a decade where they’ll be old like my mother. 

Why is god such a torture artist?

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