I want to be clear, happiness isn’t the only solution for life, it’s retaining it and keeping it authentic for longer periods of time.
I will say, that I never felt an authentic level of state-level happiness for a very long time. Meaning that my extreme ends have been, happy, mildly depressed, depressed, angry, and overall sadness. The depression has been the baseline, or always been the baseline. So when I say I want to be happy, it’s not to be statically all glory.
As I have been in therapy for almost every Wednesday since the middle of 2016, the struggles of life, that’s out of my control (of which I am well aware of), and trying to control how I respond to really tough situations. I’m always being thrown into a fire pit and try to get out of these things without harm.
I’ve allowed people to control me for too long, to the point I’ve lost control of the ability take back local-control, or self control the autonomy of my own emotions and realities.
Happiness isn’t about all smiles, it’s about an environment that is warm and welcoming, and most importantly “safe” from excessive teasing, questioning, or gaslighting one’s vision of reality. I also want to have the control of my own destiny because I am aware I have that potential, but it’s backlogged by the politics of everything.
There have been several approaches that has not worked, but the only way to happiness is to get all motherly-types off my back, and the only way to learn how not to do things, is actually by doing it and having to cope with all the emotions.
Again, this is all political at this point, and the people who have power have swaying power, it may get ugly before it gets better.
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