It’s been two years since I had hit rock bottom in my social life.
I had a friend in high school who I didn’t consider a friend till the last year or so in that high school program I was in. The friend, has a form of Asperger Syndrome, and he finished HS 3 years before I did. (This is why I don’t flaunt my high functioning status like I used to.) I think it was safe to say we had a hot and cold relationship. We never went out outside of school hours, and it was basically online.
Up until late 2008 did things change. This friend lived near Lowell, Massachusetts, and I would go to the Lowell Devils AHL hockey games. It was then where we would meet. In fact we had met on an often basis up untill mid 2010 when a perfect storm occured. I moved to my new town, Lowell moved to Albany (due to shoddy management of the NJ Devils) and there was no hockey games, and then I started to see “the girlfriend” come into his life.
She’s real, and she IIRC went to his elementary school. He never had from the best of my own knowledge any serious relationship with anybody. In fact, I never doubted, nor should anyone doubt ones friends. This girl started to circulate in text messaging (since I laid off the phone calls for various reasons, and later went back to instant messaging.) Again, I was surprised, but I didn’t have skepticism or doubts.
Since I am a virgin of all types of relationships, I don’t know what its like to have a girlfriend a best friend, or even a brother or sister relationship. I just don’t know. I’ve had people tell me that a girlfriend can distract other forms relationships, but I can’t independently confirm the accuracy of those claims because I never had any stable relationships.
2011 came along, and he started to become careless, another sign that someone is allegedly “In a Relationship”. Of course I was taught and taught almost in a hostage situation of how to reciprocate and ask follow up questions and be an active listener, as “girls find it sexy when a man listens” according to a real psychologist who claimed to know everything about autism.
However it is a different standard if you are someone with Asperger Syndrome, a normal person or anyone else who doesn’t have PDD. He became out of character with no responses like when I got a “new” notebook (a used HP business notebook.) No follow ups. I was attempting to deploy a voice over IP/IP Telephony communications system as he knew I had a strong passion for telecommunications and office voice networks. Again nothing. Not only that, I was trying to branch out and learn to use a Cisco type system, and again one has to cue the crickets. He was never like this, when it came to some commonality of interest if it was something totally different, then one could understand.
It was becoming unbearable trying to ping on the other end of the session to only find out he didn’t have time for me anymore. I don’t get how they can be together for so long and yet I don’t see their love for one another.
But again, I do not have proper entitlements to make such statement, since I never had any romantic relationships and I should just continue on with this story.
I made a strong statement in late August of that year, and the communication broke off. I later apologized in a Skype IM, because I knew I said something really nasty, and I unlike other people, had a guilty conscious. But as last year came along, there was probably a few times (if that!) we had a communication. Last year, I kept it extremely simple. I knew I was talking to a dead person (for a lack of a better description) and the relationship was essentially over.
I have gotten over it for the most part, however it was two years ago to this month where the relationships from about 2002 would come to an end. My friendship didn’t last a decade, but at least a good 8 years (with those hot and cold periods) wasn’t too bad. It was my longest.
However, my next friendship I would hope would be someone who is a significant other, because it would last forever and not the every two years I had to deal with for my entire life.
