About Clickford, Steven M.

Once I was told I had a Pervasive Developmental Disorder, 5 years after the initial diagnosis, it felt like a death sentence. I was never the same since. I published two wordpress.com pages, An Alleged Autistic from 2011-2014, and A Puzzling View on Relationships from 2012-2014 along with 2020:Hopeless Autistic (related to #NHpoli) from 2015 into 2016.

Off Topic, “WE TOOOLLD YOU SO!” – Remembering a WCBS Radio commercial in my teenage years.

In a recent vlog, I had recalled a chant, not a jingle of a commercial that aired on WCBS Newsradio 880, legally known as WCBS New York just for kicks that changed “WE TOOLD YOU SO!!!” The commercial was very effective, like a jingle made by Steve Karmen without music.

 

When I reached out to Wayne Cabot (now the morning drive anchorman for 3 more days only) who was on the PM drive when I was a teenager, it was racking his mind but Wayne couldn’t come up with the client. When asked in that same DM over a year ago on X, formerly known as Twitter, it appeared that anyone in the sales department were long gone as the New York radio groups have been more consolidated.

The auditory brand of this unknown company would stick to my brain nearly 199 miles northeast from New York City. It’s the story of my life. It was a no-brainer that I’ve been writing about denying my 30 year old diagnosis and then realizing that I started to see the end of what the system was going to treat me and my peers as communal adversaries. And every time I would suggest resisting the regulations,  no one wanted to risk a non-compliance.

And people in my group are getting figuratively screwed over.

Why The Granite State IDD Adults Are Likely Suffering

Their vision of community based supports, for some individuals feels like someone else’s delusion.

Submitted this to a Survey Monkey questionnaire the BDS was seeking answers. To steal the phrase from the fake Steve Balmer, the whole community based supports, is a bunch of “smoke and mirrors”!

 

Survey Monkey Time! Will Our Dysfunctional State Gov’t Finally Listen?

Who knows…I’m not holding my breath

in a 7 question survey found on the client portal of my area agency, last week wether I was on my male-period or what, I decided to be blunt

Here was the 4th question: What improvements or changes would you like the Bureau of Development Services to consider regarding self-directed programs?

listen to the area agencies’ concerns as families are not allowed to be in contact with BDS or have BDS involved more with families and individuals

They also asked “Are there any innovative approaches or best practices you have encountered that support self-directed programs?”

listening to the individuals and not push them what a coordinator’s grand view is of supports and services.

Another one I threw in a Direct Support Professional shortage and how the state has a law that prohibits anyone making over $20 an hour without justification, the question was ”

What areas do you feel you need additional support to successfully manage your self-directed program?”

more *qualified* direct support staff that can be paid in a liveable wage [sic]

Anything else you want the BDS to know… I sure sounded off…

The Bureau knows for years pushing clients out into community based supports 6+ hour days and 5 days a week in the wild has not worked for a number of clients. Their vision of community based supports, for some individuals feels like someone else’s delusion. Also the importance of direct support professionals and how they need to be paid better, and the career ladder shouldn’t have DSP and management on the opposite sides of said ladder

I really don’t care about political correctness to conservative bureaucrats anymore – if their grannie panties go up in a bunch, not my responsibility. I can’t see this anymore.

Incels? Autism? Not on my Bingo Card!

A Puzzling View on Relationships the then ASD and relationship WordPress blog, was written in retrospect really poorly written – of course that had to deal with my anger towards women, ahem I mean narcissistic people; I written about my teenage challenges, that bled into my twenties and later in life.

Andrew Tate or Fresh & not so Fit, or the Men’s Rights Activists were never considered to be on my bingo card. Even when I saw MRA type content (such as the blog,  Boycott American Women around 2014 or some MGTOW YouTubers in 2017) little would I know that these fringe groups would merge into a large cringe group as insecure men who are toxic themselves.

 

But what’s even unexpected in my bingo card, was that autism involuntary celibates would be a strong correlation such as one expert claiming that “it must be hard for a young man with autism to understand the dating market”… wait who is the typical person and who is comparing dating to trading commodities on the CME? Do I draw intraday charts of women’s sex appeal or draw candlestick charts of her Sexual Market Value?

Whose autistic again?

I think it’s much harder now to be single than being in your mid twenties and trash some parts of feminism and take the heat for hating women, but this is at such an ultimate low. There is an attempt to discredit all autistic men as shallow and strange men, and if this was reversed (say over-generalizing typical women ) this would not end well.

Men (and sometimes women) go into groups like going to the gym or do yoga, but sometimes this community lends itself into a cult, where the deeper messaging is through cynicism and hatred to the other.  In these private gatherings, this safe space is not to express freely without judgement, its those people who feel injust to literally be protected by people that think like them, I don’t like to say like-minded, because it’s really a feedback loop.

Are gyms and yoga studios bad? No, are there people who get fit not Freaks? Of course, but are we encouraging that? No because it’s much better to create breeding ground of ammonciity, then to actually try to solve underlying issues!

Right Wingers Enforce Sexism…

The topic is on trans, crossdressing, and men. I want to indicate the subject of this blog is an autistic individual that has symptoms of learning challenges, anxiety, depression, ruminating thoughts. Sexuality and ASD (whether it’s legacy or post DSM-IV) is very complex but correlate but I believe it’s not a causation. This matter is mature in nature.

This will be indefinitely on a future episode of The Purple Pill. This post posted by someone on X formerly known as Twitter has a lot to say about men being in “women’s spaces” whatever the hell that means… This was “reposted” by Sydney Watson, a right wing “doctor”.

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Finally Saw The #WindsorGirl…AGAIN

A Continuation of a saga of a cutie at a chain boutique store, and a follow up in the search for her

“I was having a bad morning and seeing you made my day” stated Kayla

July 1st

I had a Zoom session with my therapist who became mine following the events in the first year of the Hopeless Autistic. One of the things he wished we talked about more was girls, relationships sex or other things of this nature. Due to the recent events, and I only see him virtually on a monthly basis, that such subject was brought up. The day before, I brought this up to my friend whose doing respite, who formerly worked at my day program as a DSP. Both agreed the approach and my respite pal was agreeing that the only way to flirt is trial by error. This is unfortunately the situation so many are in.

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A Ten Year Follow Up on my Resentment to Millennials (They’ll Pass On as Useful Idiots)

I have written about Millennials on and off for the last decade plus, but I haven’t really followed up on this said generation that I technically fall into, but for the longest time I related to Gen Xers until they were worse than millennials and started to sympathize with Generation Z instead.

Can we call these 100 Million Millennials the Cluster-B Generation instead?

I still standby my belief to the point that I have said in other venues that of the 100 million or so Americans between the ages of 42 to 29, 80% should’ve been sent to a trash can of an abortion clinic. Millennials are extremely as narcissistic and unempathic  like they were in their twenties a decade ago. What I’ve realized is…

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The Saga with the #WindsorGirl

Part of an ongoing series

A couple Days later

Again on the theme of preventing transactional relationships, I bought an accessory and left not to long later as I didn’t see her, only because that first day was more of the browse, then this day would be the “shop” (I know cash in more time with sales associates!) Again as I have learned, the only way you can test relationships is not to buy anything at every time. For a learned lesson, consult the Buying My Way to Female Affection.

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