Combined written WordPress of 13 + years of writing on ASD and the Granite State. Do not visit, Do not Move here, GTFO as I wish the Granite State to be cursed with Shame!
This could vary from literally being post-hopelessness or regressing backwards during the day. The former is the aspiring, but the former always creeps in. Like with any disability, an “invisible” one is an ongoing challenge, under reported, undervalued, and worse underappreciated. Also talks about recovering from narcissistic abuse is discussed in detail.
The YouTube “Playing With Fire” (though graphically it’s says “Playing Fire” because you know men like to cut corners and be direct and talk like bots) cringe YouTuber that’s a PUA and is critiquing Jordi. This obsession of status and high value garbage is evident that he’s shooting in 4K HD, and his editing sucks like most of YouTube with jump cuts.
Why would women be interested in ENG videography? Anyways, this dude does not believe in relationships, he believes in “body counts!” Ironically he had Courtney Ryan coming onto his stream one day.
The problem with this dude is it seems like he chew tobacco and his voice shows it.
If it’s not Andrew Tate, Jordi or Kevin Samuels, it’s even on the alleged left/philosophically minded people from the Man Enough podcast, with the principal hosts of Justin Baldoni (Jane the Virgin fame), Jamey Heath and… yes… the “feminist that [allegedly] loves men [when it fits to her narrative]” Liz Plank. Don’t assume that she’s the token female, it’s completely mistaken. The dude are the primary hosts, but they are the token (male) feminists as Liz kinda steals the show. This episode went live today when writing this, and Tate was brought up at the top. Their favorite scapegoat is “the patriarchy”; and advocate explicit expression of emotions to compensate the Tates of the world.
Liz couldn’t help to piss herself by going political at various points on this episode about abortion. This alleged atypical woman can’t even control herself, bite her tongue when it comes to pressing issues, or that issues that trigger vs. “feeling uncomfortable”. Like Jordi, or Tate, or even Fresh & Fit, they are on an extremist side, and the better option to fix the broken masculinity is moderation instead of polarizing.
They must get a lot of feedback, and I sure as hell have done, but even for “tolerant” types, they are just as bad as the ones that are apparently on the right.
No one wins. Leftie guys scare me too. They ought to feel canceled…
BTW: this episode is on relationships, but I had glossed through it, for an autistic male who knows never to engage in ex-infatuations; Liz should know better to not talk to ex-boyfriends.
On YouTube on Sunday, the other better-known despite being a notorious Canadian post this fine shit…
For one thing, WTF is using the wimpy, wishy washy “Okay” being so accepted? It’s another reminder that the gender of the X chromosome is implied to be disposable, and because they build bridges and buildings they ought to have authority to a woman’s body and relationships and much like a ship wreck, one must sacrifice his life to preserve others.
Why the fuck are we living in a Stone Age mentality? It’s fucking 2022 AD… and men can’t learn the very same things they build is automating them out of a job? And these macho men can’t take responsibility?
The attitude of “a little gratitude for that is in order” what fuck you think you are Jordi, General Patton?
This is a theme where an autistic male without a father, is coping in a “reality” lead by men that have killer and dangerous tendencies. Alpha males do not help men period. The late Kevin Samuels is one of those. It’s not that all men scare me, its the victims they are potentially praying upon…
In 2019, I met some of my paternal family members, about a year after they found me on Facebook, two of the aunts. My father had never told the family about me, like my two half siblings of which he never spoke to them. May I say the sisters are closer to my age. As a result the oldest sister was under the impression that she was the oldest child and therefore gawd forbid your’s truly apparently knocked her off the pedestal in a March 2019 post of the reunion; but I had the class to use the hashtag #firstgrandchild because it was a) a fact and b) that sister is the first granddaughter, so WTF, right?
I realized that my paternal grandmother was this close to cheating death with a rare cancer. The family waited to an autistic blow up of yours truly (that if they would be open to say in the first place), that sign #1 was that they don’t see age in the grandchildren. The youngest grandchild is close to 16, while I’m the oldest (35.) The boundaries are, don’t tell the literal “children” about her condition, not even a yea or nay or any one liner at all. Maybe that’s a thing between us – the hierarchal children – and my paternal grandmother. This is the problem, selective boundaries to enhance control.
High Functioning Assholes that like to flag people that don’t agree to their personal prejudices as ableist will turn the other side to see what really goes on to the non verbal, consensual types that come off lower functioning.
Autism is such an identity to a family unit from a few that I know. It’s really tragic. I see one acquaintance on Facebook (whom I am not friends with on the platform) with their younger sibling on the spectrum by a couple of years.) The individual is 33, but seems to be that sibling taking control of their life. It’s almost as if the parents go, that individual will be the primary care taker. I repeat this a million times, why the hell do hierarchal children have to be the primary care taker of an autistic? Why are you keeping the scope so damn tight? WHY?
When I created A Puzzling View on Relationships, I remember getting flack on the socials at the time for being “bitter”. In the last decade (err really a couple years after 2012), I did try to improve myself to the best of my ability; then after receiving therapy, I still struggled. It’s how one communicates feeling left-out.
In reality, I am no different than when I was 25 in terms of being single, or worse perpetually single. The environment gotten so much worse. It was years before #MeToo, it was years before MGTOW and PUAs coming out of the fringes into cringes in the mainstream. In 2021, being single was probably the worse part. Add the horrible politics of 2022 with women, it makes it a really tough time to be a man if being a man is so politically incorrect.
I have lived in this alleged “free-state” for my entire life.
I fucking hate the politics (no more vulgarities herein!)
The division on the federal level could go as far back as 15 to 20 years ago. I noticed the change when our “elected officials” at the state level would act immature, childish, and name-call, and it became amateur hour for our elected officials. I didn’t like when it came to Medicaid waiver funding issues when the area agencies would relay political messages and blame one party of the other.
This was originally sent in early June of 2022 with no reply back (as an expectation!)
Hi,
I can authenticate you had worked at South Londonderry School in NH. I’m Steven Ayotte (soon to trash my legal surname); but don’t take the new name as a legal marriage either. Let’s not get into the discussion that a 30something was “married” to some who considered her imaginary but was more non physical instead.
I need to point the finger to you for the abuse you had indirectly caused years after leaving South. My mother has developed a severe narcissistic personality years after South. For most of my teens and in my twenties I heard how great “South School was for us”. In reality the things I had heard my mother replay out loud really was the apparent woman-crush you and the rest of the IEP team did. Your obscene levels of admiration and appreciation go to her head to the point she is trying to be my full-time-mom figure. When I was told about the PDDNOS condition in late 1999, I didn’t get the hand holding treatment you gave to my mother. It was the death sentence. My life was quickly written off.
For 23 years I’ve been hobbling in society. I’ve lost my 20s and now 1/2 way through my 30s has been wasted too for a woman who is not qualified to be micro managing my life, stealing my rights as my own guardian of ability to express without prejudice. Not to mention the adult services has been a joke in some place, Moore Center is like a corporate whorehouse, while the Nashua region is better, but is plagued by the hackerama in Concord, of course with your allaboutism of SPED and little boys, you would care less about the Medicaid Waiver system…
I really wished if I had the legal power to do so, to point to ALL South School supports that had been involved with my case to had been held criminally accountable as a sex offender and a psychological-child-molester for having a crush on my mother and literally giving me no rights as human being. I wished you lost your NHRS entitlements of pension. You guys should had surrendered your teaching certificates too. I’m talking all mainstream teachers involved w my classes too, as well as [names redacted] Also I had almost cheated death last year because I wasn’t paying attention to a pickup backing up on the tight parking area of Sunnycrest because I saw [name redacted] a few feet ahead of me because I didn’t want her to see me and then bring back up the ol wounds of South. I so don’t want to see you folks.
I can’t end this with much satisfaction that Teresa Bolick is finally dead. She had extended the South School cheerleading to my mother in the therapy that was supposed to be for me, as SAU 12 was paying for every session prior to my 21st. She was a criminal liar, she WAS NOT a “doctor” as an Medical Doctor, she was an overeducated hack who was stuck to 1979 and said some really damning stuff over the years, one was she called my mother her “hero” in 2010 and the year before “of all the years I’ve been in this field, I just got the grasp on autism” as she had offed up my life as an underage guy under her watch. You folks don’t realize how evil you are.
You indirectly fucked up my life. I have no respect for ANY of the South School personnel when I was there from 1993-1999. I hope there is a special place in hell for all who was involved. I disrespect you so much because in almost 30 years, 26 of those years I was completely disrespected.
If reading this is too much, then I suggest you search for “Londonderry NH Exposed “ and “Londonderry NH Destroyed” on YouTube to show how much pain you biaches did to me. You fucked up my life and you deserve nothing but eternal hatred from a student you didn’t care about but loved my mother to bunches instead! Enjoy the rest of your life with grace as I continue to live in living hell.
Steven M. Ayotte (hopefully Steven Clickford sooner than later)
