This was originally sent in early June of 2022 with no reply back (as an expectation!)

Hi,

I can authenticate you had worked at South Londonderry School in NH. I’m Steven Ayotte (soon to trash my legal surname); but don’t take the new name as a legal marriage either. Let’s not get into the discussion that a 30something was “married” to some who considered her imaginary but was more non physical instead.

I need to point the finger to you for the abuse you had indirectly caused years after leaving South. My mother has developed a severe narcissistic personality years after South. For most of my teens and in my twenties I heard how great “South School was for us”. In reality the things I had heard my mother replay out loud really was the apparent woman-crush you and the rest of the IEP team did. Your obscene levels of admiration and appreciation go to her head to the point she is trying to be my full-time-mom figure. When I was told about the PDDNOS condition in late 1999, I didn’t get the hand holding treatment you gave to my mother. It was the death sentence. My life was quickly written off.

For 23 years I’ve been hobbling in society. I’ve lost my 20s and now 1/2 way through my 30s has been wasted too for a woman who is not qualified to be micro managing my life, stealing my rights as my own guardian of ability to express without prejudice. Not to mention the adult services has been a joke in some place, Moore Center is like a corporate whorehouse, while the Nashua region is better, but is plagued by the hackerama in Concord, of course with your allaboutism of SPED and little boys, you would care less about the Medicaid Waiver system…

I really wished if I had the legal power to do so, to point to ALL South School supports that had been involved with my case to had been held criminally accountable as a sex offender and a psychological-child-molester for having a crush on my mother and literally giving me no rights as human being. I wished you lost your NHRS entitlements of pension. You guys should had surrendered your teaching certificates too. I’m talking all mainstream teachers involved w my classes too, as well as [names redacted] Also I had almost cheated death last year because I wasn’t paying attention to a pickup backing up on the tight parking area of Sunnycrest because I saw [name redacted] a few feet ahead of me because I didn’t want her to see me and then bring back up the ol wounds of South. I so don’t want to see you folks.

I can’t end this with much satisfaction that Teresa Bolick is finally dead. She had extended the South School cheerleading to my mother in the therapy that was supposed to be for me, as SAU 12 was paying for every session prior to my 21st. She was a criminal liar, she WAS NOT a “doctor” as an Medical Doctor, she was an overeducated hack who was stuck to 1979 and said some really damning stuff over the years, one was she called my mother her “hero” in 2010 and the year before “of all the years I’ve been in this field, I just got the grasp on autism” as she had offed up my life as an underage guy under her watch. You folks don’t realize how evil you are.

You indirectly fucked up my life. I have no respect for ANY of the South School personnel when I was there from 1993-1999. I hope there is a special place in hell for all who was involved. I disrespect you so much because in almost 30 years, 26 of those years I was completely disrespected.

If reading this is too much, then I suggest you search for “Londonderry NH Exposed “ and “Londonderry NH Destroyed” on YouTube to show how much pain you biaches did to me. You fucked up my life and you deserve nothing but eternal hatred from a student you didn’t care about but loved my mother to bunches instead! Enjoy the rest of your life with grace as I continue to live in living hell.

Steven M. Ayotte (hopefully Steven Clickford sooner than later)

Of course my loyalists would say otherwise.

these words will probably not rot that much, like plastic, it will live on forever. It’s not that I want to live on my prophecy; or I need to be “challenged” in a far left way (my ex day program was extremely philosophical), there is underlying realities, with predictable outcomes that are beyond my control.

For instance if I were to pass today or tomorrow, who would feel the most sorriest for? Not me, but my mother, as if we are some packaged deal. I cannot name many people, but only a handful would feel sorry for me and my loss of existence. Would anyone from Ltown feel bad? They are as communal narcissists as you can get. They use me to leverage themselves, if only I knew this 5 years ago.

But I post things as if no one will read it. Again if I were to pass on tomorrow or the following day the people most concerned would be everyone around me, not me personally.

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… I start to kick, I start to punch and I start to throw. My rage kicks in. You can only expect someone to hold all emotions in without an explosion.

I can tolerate a lot of shit with an autistic condition, but when the typical people try to make my life more complicated, I mean for the sake of complication… what the hell do you think I am going to feel? The typical people take advantage of something that is neurologically complex because I can cope with it. But that doesn’t mean to indiscriminately pump and dump my routines and schedules!

No one should have to wake up every morning living life day to day and not having any short term goals for a week because the fat person in your life likes to just play games to make their lives bette.

If I haven’t kicked, and screamed… it will happen. No boundaries = total mayhem!