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On the morning of March 16th aprox 5:30 am Eastern Time, our security people was notified that from Friday and Saturday, at least 2,500 hits came onto several different websites on the domain clickfo.me (which I own and manage.) It seemed like The Hopeless Autistic took the brunt. While there was no notice of performance, other critical services that is hosted remotely did have degraded performance.

For cybersecurity purposes, the website will be locked down until we know the concern and when fades. We suspect the hits are nefarious and will be taking a deep dive across server logs and other metrics.

In short, all posts will be locked down, and no new postings until the threat subsides.

Thanks!

 

International Women’s Day my ASS!

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Correction: originally posted in the 5th, and was 3 days too early. I’ll blame it on big tech “deleting” it from their calendars lol. Anyways it was worth doing it early 


Hello.

Today is International Women’s Day. Rahh Rahh Rahh…

Let’s hear a grown woman roar!

Today I must give appreciation to women who back stab, gaslight, being stepped on by a stiletto heel, and thrown under the bus.

I must obey you like you’re some boss bae.

We dudes must respect your hyper independence and deny your blatant  insecurity

Of course I cannot come off bitter or entitled, because someone like me must learn how to control how I respond

yadayadayda

Actually the women here don’t deserve another day to love and admire not where I am based. The granite state women are trashy, tacky, and politically vulgar, look at how feminism has given Kelly Ayotte her power. Look at how so many women are obsessed about protection new Hampshire’s ladies their rights by defending abortion tooth the nail.

There’s a male loneliness epidemic. Some men are struggling, if you never heard of men like Andrew Tate  I guess getting your news via WMUR and entertaining yourself listening to WZID

OR YOUR SOME OLD MAN-LADY LISTENING TO NHPR!

as you strongly believe all New Hampshire Men must be some rapist and child molesters the way Newsnine projects night after night. I don’t think the useless leader has done any coverage on the Tate bros

Women around here ride on the feminism’s coattails when it’s most convenient. That’s an insult to all to all the progress women have made in the last 1/2 century. Guess you’re an Xer, you all were for gender blurring in the 90s and now you’re anti trans! Ever wonder why so many men maybe following you? You’ve turned the Granite State as women’s-only space given how our state protects so many “private” groups

Well done, ladies with the men you care less, you swiped them left into non existence well done,,, rarrarrahh!

I guess I gotta act like a cheerleader and say Empowering Women by  Emasculating men!

No wonder why our state is so fucked up

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Follow up on the Cutie at the Coast

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So overnight after no sleep because of anxiety as the baseline of late… I was able to find the cutie on Facebook. Below is a screengrab from the Blue App, redacting personally ID-able info and scribbling other people in the default pic.

The “Portsmouth” reference on Facebook ties you to the UK Portsmouth, as it would normally identify the state’s full name. The cover pic is cropped protect the innocence and the pic looks like North Beach at Hampton Beach State Park…older public facing pics shows what I already suspected (Zoomer aged at least a decade younger. putting her at her mid 20s)

The major hotel chain has no Facebook/Meta Fan Page, I found a personal/civilian Facebook profile of the hotel, found friends of friends and was able to find her that.

Sadly  I misspelled her name on card but I had tried to confirm multiple email/phone notes and handwritten notes and her name is like my hairdressers given name just hers is a “Z” this girl is with an “S”… she has a Puerto Rican surname.

because of how Facebook tracks users finding users it wouldn’t be a surprise that my personal profile would come on the People You May Know infamously known as PYMK. Oh and she’s “single” too hopefully that is still true if she’s open to dating someone who would want to be in a potential harmonious relationship.

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#RFKJr’s Political Assault to Autistic “Men”

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Is it really 2025 or is it 1955?

I am not being hyperbolic. The Make America Healthy Again, is great on paper, but it comes at politically assaulting innocent Americans who are disabled without intention, and unlike other disabilities, the ones on the spectrum are in Robert F. Kennedy Jr’s mind to not exist.

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Why Haven’t I Worked? (Part three)

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The ongoing saga of advocacy running amok

2008 – Final weeks

Nearly a dozen weeks into the New Year, things were going to hell and a handbasket, but the teachers didn’t understand anxiety and behavior issues because they were not a “therapeutic program”. For them to think they need to be therapists or emotional councilors should look at themselves for allowing chaos at all costs as the only way to grow. Between Mass. February Vacation to March 12th, was nearly 3 weeks away; staff just wrote it off as another business day in the office.

Without repeating too much of that history, the involvement of the “transition coordinator” was literally my responsibility playing email and phone tag and trying to get someone to show up on a January day in 2008, no less than 2 months to my graduation. Is this what “self advocacy” really means?

Ironically other threats such as “we won’t be here after your 21st birthday” was also repeated. I say “threats”, because the manager type was drilling it down to cause panic to learn to cope. Some people I have spoken to have rightfully said that at this point family members should be supporting in that transition. Well unfortunately, my family was dwindling and my cousins that were the closest were not available, as a result just feeling so alone to begin with.

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Elizabeth Plank: Gen Z Hates Millennials “because they ain’t us”

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While Justin Baldoni, little known actor and the principal host of the Man Enough Podcast is getting taken to the cleaners by A-lister Blake Lively in the legal system with the alleged happenings-on with It Ends With Us, the former female co host, Liz Plank (who left the weekday following the initial print) has not commented on Justin’s character, but has gone on complete deflection and distraction since. The other day, Liz makes a reflection in her LiveJournal with a paywall that is her Substack about how Gen Z hates Millennials because “they ain’t like us”

As I have said before, 80% of Millennials born shouldn’t been aborted to begin with, leaving them at only 20 million. Gen X the preceding generation hates both the Boomers and Millennials, and their offsprings, Gen Z would get those feels. But Liz’s apparent narcissism (common in Millennials), just weeks before three-eight (that’s Liz not me) is very evident in her what she would call her writings an “essay”

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Why I Haven’t Worked? (Part two)

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 2005-2007 Suicidal Ideations (Content Warning)

There had been multiple ideations, some 1/2 attempts or threats of it in the two years leading from school. Combine it with cognitive dissonance of where my mind and soul with developmental age mixed in with late stage adolescence.

By 2006, I really realized my life I once knew would get really hard, dark and depressing. This was by no means the medication influence I had at the time, because I was able to see the reality and I knew that surviving it would not be easy. Of course all support staff would be quick to gaslight me that I am just seeing this all through some delusion.

Many years later, my fears became more of a reality. While no one really cared after I aged out (because it’s a profession, the student is an object, the teacher is a one in complete power and control) it made me feel more isolating because no one really understood what I was going through, I was singled out by everyone else, so I guess it was an me-problem, right?

While I am on this subject, I like to share a wayback post from late 2023, of Why I Broadcast “Self Desperations” where people get “concerned” (for their own reputation of course!)

Suicide is weaponized the moment someone expresses it to go full DEFCON to ensure their “safety” but more blunt interventions often lead to more isolation and more aggression of which they’ll be quick to blame the individual. I wasn’t the only one to deal with this, and as result of inappropriate  behaviors, the school to work program intervened by flipping morning and afternoon academic/work groups around as a way to punish them

It goes to the logic of if-you-act-like-a-five-year-old;we-weill-treat-you-as-such, said many people in the oughts, but clearly this leads to Adversative Adult Experiences.

Life hasn’t been worth living since…

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Why Haven’t I Worked?

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Part of an ongoing series of feel-good ideals leading to hopeless outcomes

2005-2007

I was able to claim the “Class of 2005” in some ways, my second out of district program. In fact the Eagle Tribune had a photog, but none of the pictures ever got to print. I was hoping I’d have a moment. Again anyone with behavior challenges must be damned from soup to nuts, meaning we were the least underfunded program of all the programs at that site – because no one has sympathy to people who have chronic behavior issues.

The “school to work” program commenced at the start the 05-06 school year, with the summer time being spent 1/2 the day being what became my former program and what would be my new one. By end of the summer program, the program I left was 3 years to the day, the longest I would be in three out of district programs.

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Four Weeks Ago Yesterday…

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It’s been four weeks ago yesterday I came home from my trip at the coast.

As I go onto the fourth week following the note, not being desperate by any means, was hoping my pre-perceived prejudices would be wrong yet again, to only be right yet again.

The ball is in her court, the question does she even know that the ball is in her court? Worse, given the news of late, did get get deported? Gawd I hope not.

Like I said before, she was one of the very few ladies in my life who was so sincere, or maybe I should be doubting that too. I’ve tried to open up to people who are so scared IRL. Females. Women, who think any male wants to treat her like a toy! If this pattern continues once in a lifetime, maybe I’ll be lead on my dying days near 75, or even younger where my heart won’t be broken yet again.

[Multi Parts] Why Haven’t I Worked?

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I want to introduce you to a new feature that I have been contemplating for 14 years, starting with An Alleged Autistic/A Puzzling View on Relationships to the Hopeless Autistic, the story goes back to almost 20 years to the day in March. I’d rather start in 2005, when I was coincidentally turning 18 going on 15, and that still fucked up brain known as adolescence that was often shamed upon the child, the victim, the student.

§504/IEP Meeting, Spring 2005 (Undisclosed Location, Essex County Massachusetts)

Due to the interstate differences, the New Hampshire law required the student to attend their IEP meeting in full, as I was my own guardian. One of the reasons why I didn’t opt for guardianship was I thought I could use that as leverage for “advocacy” (spoiler alert, it failed)

This meeting included my speech therapist, my primary school teacher, the mis manager (er “Program Director” my mother and me including the head of Pupil Services, Brian Balke) and according to me scanning through a piece in the Useleess Leader and or channel surfing against WMUR-TV Manchester in the last couple of years, he’s the head of schools in Goffstown. Something is telling me the Fraud on Broad Street wasn’t in that meeting. I wouldn’t be surprised Bolick’s absence was by pure coincidence and nothing more (sarcasm implied)  in certain IEP meetings that were critical in nature. Other people would be in no show before and after.

At this time the team agreed the next path of my life was to go into a school to work program. I get it now, and possibly back then, but to have my entire day be entirely on life skills (that has become antiquated with the change of technology), social skills that made us extremely avoidant to dealing with superiors oh and the focus on sexual harassment was extremely stigmatizing and the force the birdie out of the nest by the 21st birthday was extremely anxiety ridden, I’d go so far to say this really lead into a turbulent 20s in my life. People who were in this position of authority had no business whatsoever.

By late spring (perhaps) May I caved in to their proposal.

I need to tell you something extremely disturbing about Balke, The head of Londonderry’s Pupil Services had the audacity to say “You’re going to get a Londonderry High School Diploma” in Spring of 2005, knowing I had repeated fifth grade 7 years before, that it was implied would graduate two years after my target year (Class of 2006) and again I was pushed to graduate later in 2008, specifically on my birthday. There was an attempt for me to get out as early as spring of 2007 but that was pushed by abuse of New Hampshire and Federal rights against the Commonwealth of Massachusetts’ own rules, which violates Federal laws.

Leading up to 2005, I didn’t feel intellectually competitive against my own typical peers in education, but I don’t even know now because the millennials are dumb as rocks. In their thirties!

The next series will be those three years where I realized at that point my life was at the point of no return and why I didn’t end my life sooner and not before I was even 20 that I knew my life had passed.

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