December 1999: The Time I Saw My Life “Flash” By…

23 years ago roughly in 1999, I recall an attempt of suicide, thanks to testosterone, taking Paxil and a botched transition to the local Middle School in ltown. The location? It was Seacoast Learning Collaborative, a private school, I believe acting as a non profit entity, off Exit 8 what was then the new extension of state highway 101, (IIRC the 4 lane highway was just completed either weeks or a month before.) I recall the construction and being stuck four years before in traffic going to Hampton Beach. Ironically seeing the Castles of Brentwood, where many local shops got displaced when 101 was completed. When I left Seacoast in 2002, virtually they had all units of about twentysomething at The Castles. Two other programs were not affiliated,  but rented it. The New England Dragway owned the building; unsure what the status is as time goes on, the tress cover up the visibility of the Castles, of which I think is a good thing.

I have not discussed SLC as a separate blog post, or the details of my experience; but basically a private school doesn’t have to comply with state rules, and SLC’s ethos is to straighten troubled kids because because students like to blame their disability for everything not that the disability is truly controlling them unfairly. The two most outrageous students  I recall aren’t on Facebook. Perhaps they see a therapist like the one I see because they break the law or go to jail or do stupid stuff, making me perhaps a more saner of the bunch of the PDD program of the ol SLC.  Continue reading

Afterthoughts From the Last Day Program (The Narcissists)

On March 13th, 2020, on my full day of my 33 years of existence at the time, would be my last scheduled day at my day program, because of the COVID pandemic. I do not know my official last day was on the books. My mother being, nice-gal had paid the program for March, even when we did not receive a monthly progress note. My preferred DSP’s last day would also be on Friday the 13th.

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