How Does One Rebuild Their Lives?

Posted on July 25, 2022 by Clickford, Steven M.

Being in my media production business, I know a thing or two about rebuilding.

Building edit suites and creative/promotional workspace is one thing; rebuilding your life from the ground up? That’s a challenge I am struggling in life.

I do not know specifically how retain the idea of keeping toxic people out. I did start to implement what many would consider boundaries, but that was too little too late; it’s hard to find good help and most often the people who come to help may have good intentions but the outcomes can be far from the dream.

One of the things I have done was to do-away of specific interests, such as shutting down The Museum of Telephony, I felt that had to go. The second is start to find people who have describable personalities. That alone can cut down that list.

I do not want someone to come into my space and tell me what I am doing “wrong”. It’s not to say I may do something that’s not proper. I want to have my safe-space too, we all do, hell even Donald Trump has safe spaces (CPAC, TPUSA, etc.) so it’s not just the left.

I don’t know how much more I can attempt to rebuild and have it go away just like what happened 2 years ago. Everything was stable until the pandemic. Most of the pandemic concerns have dwindled, but everything is back to normal for the IDD system, and the ongoing destruction that we ourselves have to clean up. Or shouldn’t I? Maybe I was the enabler.

If you have any ideas, please let me know in the comments.

How to Escape from a State of Narcissism

Posted on July 25, 2022 by Clickford, Steven M.

What to do if you live in a state of narcissism? Not moment of a level of it, but one of the fifty U.S. States? I suspect there is over a million people in New Hampshire that have minor or significant fingerprints of NPD. Despite what you hear from Free Staters, this state is not “free” for all. “Freedom” apparently these days lack responsibility and accountability… this wasn’t always the case back 30 something years ago in this state. We have a government, we have other institutions, and they are so authoritative, that it defeats the purpose of freedom or even conservatism. Often these people are unelected, or shouldn’t be. The Town Council where I live is so damn authoritative, they think they are Congress or something like that.

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Conservatives Are More Scarier to Me Than Ever Before

Posted on July 24, 2022 by Clickford, Steven M.

I do not like the word “conservative”. It’s not the fiscally responsible and accountable individuals anymore. It’s more about It’s-All-About-My-Personal-Beliefs-As-Everyone-Else’s-Reality. It’s about congregating certain beliefs and shutting out the ones they do not want to hear. They will call out “the left” for doing something offensive but they live in pile of horsecrap and not realize they are just as bad too. They do not like to be informed, they want to be affirmed.

The more richer some are, the more out of touch they are. (I know mostly lefties are rich…but.) But even middle class (or the shrinking middle class) are more snootier than other groups I can think of.

This weekend, the Turning Point USA, the conservative groups for the youth in colleges and universities, with a logo of an arrow going at a 90° angle curving the left to go back to then bow to the right to move forward had their gathering in Tampa. This place where many Gen Zers were in attendance. Most of their parents would be Generation X, and their grandparents being Silents, this is the buttoned up, suck it up (oh wait this is the generation of “Karens”), allaboutism to “the economy”.

Generation Z claims to be more open to other civil rights groups, but in the last ten years to see the Tea Party become the T Party with the way President Trump did a hostile takeover to that fringe group, I don’t feel very trusted with conservative people. It’s as bad as they recognize your existence, but deny your voice. You’re supposed to shut up and suck it up. I had seen some b-roill on cable news of these under 25 year olds that are probably not the ultra-rich children living on trust funds, but seem to be interested in typical, caucasian people that are perfect strong muscular alpha males because in the Stone Age, it was expected for attractions and procreations to have a strong-man figure.

Today, so many act like p*ssies and handle responsibility. In reality conservatives are no longer looking out for people like me. Governors Ronald Regan and John H. Suunnu had de-institutionalized the developmentally delayed system for political points. There was no long term strategy .

I love to be around people who are open to other’s ideas and aren’t going to talk down to me if I do not agree to their world view. Is there anyone rational anymore?

Afterthoughts From the Last Day Program (The Narcissists)

Posted on July 24, 2022 by Clickford, Steven M.

On March 13th, 2020, on my full day of my 33 years of existence at the time, would be my last scheduled day at my day program, because of the COVID pandemic. I do not know my official last day was on the books. My mother being, nice-gal had paid the program for March, even when we did not receive a monthly progress note. My preferred DSP’s last day would also be on Friday the 13th.

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Feminism in The 603

Posted on July 24, 2022 by Clickford, Steven M.

The opinions are coming from a 1/2 Caucasian guy that is an outsider looking in

Feminism and the women’s rights movement is a bit different than in other places. Except for the few blue towns, of which one could recognize the women’s rights movement (abortion, the rights to vote, etc.) the rest of the state was kinda “silent” and not take an extreme position; but I have noticed that feminism in my state is radically different.

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The Log: Relationship Status with “Aly” Changes, Steven gets “Challenged”…yet again! (07-10-2019)

Posted on July 20, 2022 by Clickford, Steven M.

From typed up notes not from the database…it was actually a “team meeting” with the case manager of the area agency involved. This followed the events of July 1st; and this set the tone for the rest of the calendar year, making that one moment of mutually misunderstanding be entirely all my fault at the expense of my status there.

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